Rebirth. Revival.

And yet again... another new blog.

Eversince I've devided to write my thoughts in the web, I've created countless of blog accounts. From myspace, to friendster, to blogspot and livejournal... I have lost track of the number of online journals where my thoughts are written. Of course, most of those other blogs were short lived and only a few of my blogs have had many entries that I considered as my 'real' blogs. Some of blogs that I made just served its purpose for a short time - depending on what I feel or what 'phase' I am going through. And of course, I leave the those blogs after the 'phase' is over.

I remember starting my blog as a personal journal and that no one but me knows that it exists. After a while, I finally let other people know that I have an online journal. Back before I started to go public, since I know that I'm the only one reading it, I really wrote what I feel. But after I've gone public, unknowingly, I seemed to have filtered what I write. Sometimes, I just write whatever is appropriate and what other people would like to read - and frankly, for the main purpose why I started my blog, it's really stupid. I maintain blogs and write my entries as an outlet. And back then, I was such an emotional and angsty teenager and yet when I write my entries, it is more often that I tone down my writings because I know that many people read it. I was cautious taht I might step into other people. But though that's the case, I've had my private blogs on which I really wrote what I felt - those things that I want to express but I don't like people to know. I have two private blogs - the other one is strictly private (dark kemikulz) but the other one is actually public... it's just that people doesn't know that it exists.

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After blogspot, I transferred to livejournal. And things got a little messy. Haha. As far as I can remember, I wrote two entries that created a stir - one for my org because someone from the rival org have read one of my entries, and another is when I wrote something about one of my college profs. And that's when I learn to make my entries private and that only my friends can read it. It was actually an eye opener - a lesson that things you write in the cyberspace can be used against you.

Then came multiply (http://jaidroujen.multiply.com). Since multiply has the capability to store pictures, music, videos and other stuff - and at the same time maintain a blog - it has been my main blog for a long period of time. It's much easier to get updated with other friends and also, it has the ability to make cross posting to my livejournal account. But I kinda got irked with multiply when the lay-out has changed.

I actually stopped writing entries in my blogs right after I graduated from college (April 2009). I just didn't feel the need to write anymore. I felt that my writing phase is over and that I have nothing 'interesting' more to write. College was full of drama and after college was over... I can't seem to think of anything appropriate to write anymore. I don't feel like sharing to a younger crowd the pains of finding a job. It just doesn't feel right. hahaha. I felt that I have no right to 'make drama' anymore since I've already entered the 'real world'. That's why I stopped writing. And also, blame it on the microblogging sites - plurk, twitter - and even Facebook. Sometimes you just think... 'Hey, why write a long entry that no one will read... when you can just post status updates?'. But of course, the negative effect is that you forget how to write coherently. Right now, I'm still finding a way to bring back the way I write before and to practice writing again.

And now we've come to the inevitable question - why start a new blog again?
Well, like I said, I again feel the need to write. So many thing are happening right now and I feel that it's just wrong if I let it pass by without having something to remind me of it. Truthfully, when I read my old entries, I realize the difference of my life back then and how different I act. And without those entries - I wouldn't have remembered anything. Sure they say that pictures are worth a thousand words but honestly, reading something that describes the experience is very much different - it makes your mind wonder and reminisce. That's why I am writing again. And why the new blog? Well, I feel that a new chapter of my life is unfolding and is much different from the life that I have before - and it is just right that I start with a fresh new place where I write the new things that I experience.

Gone are the days where my blog is full of entries about teenage angst and the dramas of a college boy's life. This one is a new blog for a new life. Hopefully, I can write mature things here always - I doubt. hahaha. I would like this blog to be something that will be a log of the realization of the dreams that I had before and an enlightenment to different things that I have yet to experience.

So there!

I'm living in the real world right now, surely there's a lot to write eh? :)

New Year. New Blog. New Life.
Rebirth and Revival.

Let's get it on!