Let's Go

What sucks?

It's when you want to do a lot of things but you can't.
And the reason is because you don't have someone to do it with.

It's tough right now to get a hold of someone to join you when you want to go out and do stupid things or whatever. People are busy. Busy with this. Busy with that. Or basically busy with their life.
I'm feeling right now the repercussions of the 'live and let go' mantra that I used to believe in before. Kinda sucks, but there's no use in making a fuss on what has been done before. Like I do most of the time, just go on with life and make the most of what I currently have.

I just kind of get lonely sometimes that I can't 'enjoy' because I don't have someone to be with. It's true what they say that it's much more fun and meaningful when you do stuff with other people. I don't mind going out by myself some times but there are times that you just want to laugh and talk with someone. But again, I know that people can't always be with you because we all have our own lives to live.

Maybe I just need a little more confidence to speak what I think. Often, I just keep it that is why things aren't happening the way I want them to.

Hmm.. yeah. Thinking about it, I would say that that's really the bottom line of all this shiz that I am writing about.

I just need to learn to ask.

...that's something that as of now, I don't usually do.

Converse and collaborate.

Boom! Problem solve.

But then.. It's easier said than done. Oh well. Let's see.

*yay.. a realization post. not really what I want to write but WTH. LOL*

Alcohol

A couple of weeks back... Someone asked me.

"Why do you drink?"


...

I was stumped. I didn't have any answers. I said that I drink just to be social.

"Besides that, why else do you drink? Do you like the taste? The feeling of alcohol coursing through your body?"

My answer was No. And there were no other reasons that I can think of why I drink.

And that made me stop.

People might wonder why I drink less than usual. Aside from the reason abow - well, lack of reason I would say - the last drinking session that I have attended wherein I got wasted was not a good experience. It might be possible that I have developed some kind of 'fear' when I see a bottle of alcohol. Hahaha. Stupid, right?

I'm not saying that I will not drink anymore. I'll just be more cautious and drink much less.

Aside from draining my pocket, it directly goes to my tummy - and I don't want it to get bigger than it is right now. Hahaha.

So there - hopefully I can do this. =)) hahaha!

Very little alcohol intake for me from now on. Or...

There's Nothing to Write

This happens most of the time - I want to write something and ideas are flowing from my mind. But when I face the computer...

blank.

I cannot seem to express what I want to write and I get stuck and stupid and just ramble on whatever.
It kinda sucks since I really want to express many things. But it seems that the moments just pass me by. And that happens always - even if it is not about writing. Sometimes I badly want to do things and I am really in the zone... but once I get there.. boom! The feeling's gone and it really sucks. I can't even remember the reason of why I want to do it.

Right now, I want to write above 'Hate and Love' and the coexistence of both - because it is what I feel right now. But I can't. The ideas that I have before opening this page seems to have gone and now I'm at a loss of what to write. Thus the creation of this entry that is totally unrelated. It really sucks. Sometimes I just wish that I have this device that automatically translates what is in my mind and writes it in paper or automatically types it. For sure, that would make things a lot more easier. But of course - asa naman ako.

Oh well. So there you go... nothing intelligent to write.
Maybe next time.